Saturday, November 30, 2013

There is Gratitude in Letting Go…

Having this week off for Thanksgiving Break, I’ve been ruminating over the whole idea of gratitude. What am I really grateful for? I can honestly say that not being able to let go has been a big part of my life for the past few months, and I’m finally getting to the acceptance part of letting go. I really am truly grateful for that.

You see, I have a huge problem with being able to let go. Once an idea gets into my mind, or a person makes their way into my heart, it is extremely difficult for me to get it out, even when it is obvious that the ideas or feelings are not going to work out or in my best interest. The worse part of my not being able to let go is that it blocks me from so much. I can’t focus on what needs to be done because my mind is fixated so much on what I want to happen. I can’t get things done around my house because my mind is passing time thinking about what I don’t have in my life. Even more destructive for me, I can’t concentrate enough to even write, or, when I do finally sit down to write, it’s all about those things I can’t let go of.

So, my mantra this week has been “Let Go.” It’s painful sometimes to chant it. It makes me cry. It makes me long for what I need to release. It also reminds me that there is more to life than those things my mind can’t seem to get away from. When I feel my mind wandering to those ideas, I say out loud, “Let Go.” I said it in the middle of the grocery store, during Thanksgiving dinner, while getting a pedicure, and always just before I slip into sleep. It helps. Really, it does. Just say it until you believe it. I was able to write this very post because I kept telling myself, “Let Go.”

I’m setting myself free from my thoughts. I am unblocked. I’ve Let Go.