Wednesday, January 23, 2019

At My Most Creative...

"Creativity Light" one of a pair hanging above my bed.
Any time before noon. That’s when I am most creative. After noon, I need a nap. Working a 7:45am to 3:45pm job means that I can’t easily get all my creative work done before noon. Sometimes I don’t have time to even think about my “To Do” list until after lunch because of interruptions and emergencies in my day. Due to that, my goal is to get up at 5am so that I can get some creative writing in before I go to work in the mornings. That doesn’t always (read “usually”) happen. When it doesn’t, I try my best to steal moments throughout the day so that I can get that creative need fulfilled. It’s a struggle sometimes, and I fail at it many days.

Why do I not just give up? The simple answer is, I can’t. While that is simple, the reason is not. It is a drive. A desire. A need. I absolutely have to write down words. I have files in my cloud storage filled with random paragraphs, ideas that sparked my interest in those moments of writing need.

Sometimes my words in a day end up being complaints. Frustrations that I can’t speak out loud. Worries about not getting things done as they need to be. There is nothing wrong with that, but complaining is not always fulfilling to my creative soul. It just ends up frustrating me more.

I honestly never really have writers block because I can always write words. What I do have is creativity block, where my brain gets overwhelmed and the interesting stories just can’t come out. I’ve been working on trying to make those complaining and worrying paragraphs, located in a file aptly called “Complaints Department,” into some sort of story collection. All those words, those complaints, those worries will become something useful to me.

This is why journaling is so important. If I can’t think of a thing to write, I journal. I start my morning off every day that I can with journaling about anything and everything. You never know what your mindless writing will bring to you. Mine will hopefully become a book by the end of the year.